As my daughter gets older, the closer we get to the decision everyone seems to be pushing us toward.
When will she be enrolled in Kindergarten?
You can only lead people on for so long without actually deciding.
The choices seem so endless and terrifying. This isn't just a choice deciding on what's for dinner. This involves my child's learning. Her growth, her development, how she sees the world.
And I understand I don't really have that much control in any of that, but the idea that my choice in how to school her or not school her makes me clam up and worry.
I've researched homeschooling and public schooling and unschooling. I've read everything. I've tried planning lessons or just letting her do her own thing. And then my amazing daughter will hit me with a curve ball.
She was watching a cartoon, and I can't even remember which one. As we are watching, they go to school in a yellow school bus and she got so excited. She told me that she couldn't wait to ride in one and go to school.
Everything I'd learned, everything I had thought I knew, the decision I was so close to making, all of it went up in smoke. My daughter doesn't know what she wants, she just sees these shows and hears talk about going to school and that's all she can think about. I feel unable to breathe.
So do you go with what your child sees on television and wants to do, or do you go with your gut about what would be best for your child?
My husband is severely dyslexic, and I have always been worried our children would have it. Now, most people have some form of dyslexia, but the idea of my child not being able to read because of a decision on how to school her is daunting.
Sending her to a school that is overcrowded with teachers that can't spend time with her one on one is one of the big reasons I want to homeschool. But, if she has a great teacher, thrives in the environment with other children, would I be making the wrong choice to keep her home and teach her myself?
Has anyone else struggled with this choice? Any sites or books or even insight to help would be amazing.
This decision is so much harder than I thought it would be.